so this is dumb, don’t read this, what are you doing
basically my dad and i have dinner every other week or so, and he called to see if i wanted to go tonight, but i told him that i was busy -
and i thought that maybe that feeling i had after i told him that was guilt? but i just realized, it’s not guilt in the least, instead it’s that tiny sliver of fear that maybe he’s mad at me and shit i’ve got to do something to protect myself and what do i do.
so that’s cool and everything. :|